Monday, December 17, 2007

anyone?

so, does anyone still come here?
haha!
but who cares?

i miss you.
and i wonder if thats okay.
its so unexpected.
you of alll people came to my mind.
its not like a despise it and all

but its just so unexpected

anyways,
birthday's just arnd the corner.
and i dont really have any plans for it.
i guess its jsut another mundane day.

being around people whom makes me smile would be a great gift.
anyon up for that?
anyone??

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anyone?

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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

moved

hey guys!
ive moved to LJ due to influencial reasons
but have no idea how to go about functioning it
someone please help..
oh yes,
its at http://chewy-tablets.livejournal.com
HEE HEE
:D

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Monday, September 24, 2007

i was just thinking

we are all entitled to our own opinions yes?
we do have the right to speak our minds yes?
we as humans do make assumptions yes?
we do let our emotions out yes?
we do let our mind wander yes?
we dont really read minds yes?(unless youre psychic)

so tell me why
why cant you ask me those questions?
why cant you direct it to me?
if you have emotins which you dont wanna show me,then keep it in good
if you think that by me changing is gonna affect the things or in this case thing in my life,
tell me bout it.

i feeel i cant get into you anymore
that i can no longer get along with you anymore
like theres this barrier btwn us
yeah,perhaps its just me
wait, it is me
but what can i do?
i really really can no longer feel it.
yeah, you might say im blocking it out
then doesnt that tell you something?

this is where i can let my emotions out
im truly speaking my mind right now

if youre not happy with the way things are,
TELL ME!
talk to me
cant do that?
pen out your thoughts

but just so you know
it might get nasty
cause i might not wanna talk
cause what i ned right now
is alone time
time away...
away from you.

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

today

are you refering to me?
maybe you're not.
oh well. #3

mm,
met up with quite a few people last night.
met up with roach and widya
they were both late by the way
i swear, punctuality..not in their dictionary
HAHAH!
oh well.
then i bumped into gwen
she was waiting for shaunna
haha!
andyou know shaunna was late too
hahah!
then they left for suntec
and me oach and widya waited for farah to come
walked around like some lost people..
from orchard to somerset to orchard to rivervalley
oh my!
hahah!
but dinner was good
yawl shd just share food
haha!
dint even finish la
food wasters!

walked all the way back to town after that
felt that we needed the walk
hahah!
our tummys were bloated like fuck la!
haha!

oh well,
then we made our way home :)
home sweet home

its amazing
how awkward it may seem
so just walk pass people we used to acknowledge
those we once hanged out with
that had so much fun together
but now we just walk pass them

hw bout those hugs we took for granted
thinking there'd always be another hug
but there isnt
sometimes there just isnt any word
to describe the emotions
like there's just nothing
to say bout it anymore

like how there are certain things
we can and cannot say
how we'd have to put up a front
pretend we're okay
not speaking whats on our mind

to me i felt,
it was a facade(sp)
it was all fake
false.pretence.
covering up the real emotions felt
after a while,
it gets tiring
exhausted.

till the truth is out,
i guess i'd just lay low about it all

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Friday, September 21, 2007

ahh,
where shall i begin?
ifeel so bored stayin home
yet im too lazy to go out
why is that so?
what did i do yesterday...
mm,i woke up at one
slacked around
watching tv and dvds
then what.?
oh yes, mom came home
then it was time to eaaat!
YAY!

after which i continued slacking
like seriously
lazing around is not good
tsk tsk nor
hah!

oh yes, then i watched america's next top model
oe of my favourite's out la!
dang!
but its okay
some are still inside
haha!

someone please come
and explain to me to what has become
is it that im immune to it
or tht i dont bother
maybe its just me
i get agitated at the slightest things

and if its just me
why now?
why one?
why?

you know, i can seriously go crazy
having so many thoughts in my head know
maybe i gotta fill up my time
maybe i just gotta stay in
keep myself from others
but stayin home isnt an option

siggghhhh.
im gonna faster than i think.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

dots

i dont know what i need anymore
i dont know what to do
every step i take
every move i make
seems like im draggin a thousand tonnes along with me

when i have the time alone
i sit and i think
i try to think things through
but nothing i ever think of has a conclusions
yes,i have answers for them but
somehow it jsut doesnt feel right

there is no right or wrong answers
but the ones i have just doesnt suit it
what do i need out of this
what is it trying to show

i try to be the middle man
and play fair
but none seems to satisfy
myself especially

there are times i wish i knew the answer
then what life would that be then
to be spoon fed with aswers to our dying questions
to get a response from all our thoughts

well, we all know life has its ups and downs
so i guess we cant complain and just get through with it

many months has passed
so many it close to yet another year
yet i feel i dint accomplish anything
perhaps i did
just not in a long run

so am i to be contented
cause atleast ive achieved
to look on the bright side
and know i've atleast felt the feeling of accomplishment,though for a while

i need to do some thinking
but where do i begin?

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wow.shock me

You Are Very Happy Being Single
You're not anti-relationship. You just don't need one to be content.
You find plenty of happiness from your life as it is.
And if you find someone you love, then that's just icing on an already decadent cake!

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early morning

if i dont understand
explain to me till i do
if im insensitive
let me feel the way you do
if im careless
tell me im wrong
if i seem like i dont care
tell me what to do
show me the way to the ideal place
cause it seems like no matter how hard i try,i fail

probably its just me
cause nothing seems to work
then i go thinkin bout how it all began
and i wonder..
wonder if i made the right choice

it was way easier than this
much more relaxed and chilled
i felt so care free at that time

but i guess its the age
and the thinking
maturity;took the better of me

says my horoscope;
Someone has much higher expectations of you than they have a right to. In order to prevent any misunderstandings, be honest and be direct about what your comfort level is -- and if you have to put certain tasks off for another day, then do so. There will be a lot of distracted people to deal with right now, and it could be quite difficult to separate yourself from the growing conflict. All of this disharmony could affect your life in an unpredictable way.

is that right?
would there be a right time to do it??

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

pos;
you know i could never understand you
right from the very beginning
i try and i try
to make up for what you have done
to comprehend why you did things as such
you made it seem like shes the only one youve got
that everyone else didnt matter
you go all out just give her what she wants
to impress her,you satisfy her every want
even at times where its unneccessary
but what but those related to you?
you donteventreat em like family
you assume nobody cares for you
that we're all here just to put you down
that all of us are just out to put you down
but think bout my brother
what is it that has cause for us to have such behaviour towards you
in ur line of priorities,
where do we stand?
where does she stand?
think bout it.

sigh,
thats a relief
now thats it's off my chest
i shall update

the last time i blogged was after my paper right?
well,on thursday
i met up with donn.
long time long time

then on friday.
wah,hell i was pissed off with the com mann.
i dinthave school and wantd t try out the wireless and coffee bean
and bloody hell
slow as a bloody turtle i tell you
the fact that it took so long to load.
then it took forever to detect my wireless
and like another thousand years to open the page
yes yes
i do not have the patience
so i gave up half way
HAHA!
oh well now
then i went for dinner with kakak and abg. :))
oh,the love. :D

hmm,
weekends were pretty exhausting
family gatherings
bla bla bla.

then monday came
met roach in the morning
she had an interview
which got CANCELLED
hahah!
poor thing la that one
walked around town.
met azie and farah
chilled at starbucks till like god knows what time
theni went back to azie'splace to break me fast
HAHAAH!!
ASAM PEDAS yo
its a damn yummy dish ima telling ya!

today!
i met raoch in town
that girl had school
walked around a bit
town felt really empty
the fact that nothing else ould be done but walk around
im fastin raoch is fasting
wait a minute
whose making a fuss?
hahah!
ohwell.
then it was off to meet her sister at around 5.30
toook the train back to her place
had dinner with her.
once that was done
i made my way home!
home sweet home

yes i call it my home because i stay with my mom
and....
yeah thats it
it's a home because i stay with my mom
then again maybe its a hiuse that mom and i had no choice
but to stay in.??
hmm...

i know know
there are times that she would annoy me
and irritate me
but nonetheless,
shes still my mother and i love her very much. :))

whats a house
when i dont feel at home
whats a house
when i dont have my own bedroom
whats a house
when i dont get to rest
whats a house
when i dont get privacy
whats a house
when it feels so emtpy

i guess every household has its secrets
and im just expressing myself.

till then,
i wonder what im gonna do tmr.
HAH!

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